My seventh and final period of the day was the most trying of the day. I moved the desks into groups so that students could work in their groups. I gave a lesson quiz over Friday and yesterday's lesson (average score was 1 out of 5 - high score was 3.5). I gave directions once and explained that I would only give them once. Everyone was quiet and listening, but 10 minutes later at least 5 people asked me what to do (they were supposed to sub one problem for another). Afterwards, a review for Friday's big test. To be fair all but about 3 people were doing some work. One of the non-workers is worried about being expelled, and the other two are members of the track team. Both were excited that rain has cancelled their practice. Both were argumentative everytime I asked them to get to work. Both will hear from their coaches and parents soon LOL.
I really don't want to be like this. Too many of my thoughts are negative. I want to enjoy my job, I want to enjoy being around my students. Every other year, by now I'm planning for the next year, leaving myself little notes and making lists. I don't feel like I'm doing that now. I feel like I'm just complaining all the time. I know a couple reasons why:
1. Writing it in this blog brings it all to the surface, when I would normally just blow it off.
2. Stopped taking anti-depressants b/c trying to get pregnant. I just stopped on Monday so the effect won't really take place for a day or two.
3. PMS or baby-hormones. Not sure which, and that in itself causes me to be stressed (excited, but stressed none-the-less).
One thing my principal did say during his rant was "Make it a Better Place, Every Day!" This was about 30 seconds before he went over the lockdown procedure in case of an emergency lol. Seriously, though, I'm going to try to focus on that from now on.
I made a sign today for my room that says "No More Excuses!! Not even from you." I realize the negativity that it implies but I hung it anyway, because I think it's a necessary message that my students aren't getting. The constant barage of excuses and lies that I am handed each period of each day gets old quickly.
Tomorrow I'll make a new sign that says "Make it a Better Place, Every Day!" to balance the aura of the room. lol
PS. Yesterday's sign said "Pencils 25 cents or 3 for 50 cents"
