Been a while...
Life is pretty steady. Spencer is growing everyday. I put some of his new size 12 month clothes on him and they are almost too small. It's a different brand than I normally buy, though, so it may just be a fluke. Already washed and folded so I can't exchange them. Oh well, I'll try to keep him in them as much as possible over the next couple fo weeks so he does get some wear out of them. Mike is doing well with the smoking and drinking. He's been in AZ for a while now and though I'm sure he's been tempted, he hasn't done either. I'm so proud of him. He's like a totally different person. So much more relaxed and confident. He doesn't see it and I try not to mention it. I told him the other day about the being more relaxed, though. I won't bring it up too much, because I don't want him to think every compliment is just the silver lining of an insult about how much he used to drink. Don't want to put him on the defensive. Anyway, he really is doing a lot better.
Anyway, he wanted to stay away over the weekend and I started to get a little resentful. Like I have been when he takes naps and I don't get to, etc. And then it hit me that I was acting just like Barb, literally. In high school (when I was working 30+ hours and in school) I would take a nap between school and work and if she came home and found me napping, she would yell at me and make me get up. Because she didn't get a nap and she was old, I was young so I don't get one either. So I realized that I was doing the same thing to Mike. If he wants to take a nap and I've got Spencer, why shouldn't he? It would be nice if he offered to take Spencer (sincerely, I mean) so I could nap. Usually his offers are of the "if you make me I will, but what I really want is for you to give me permission to do what I want" variety. It's amazing how "Do you want/need me to watch him?" comes out entirely differently than "Let me watch him so you can rest." Doesn't matter, the point is, I shouldn't resent him for having time that I don't if I don't speak up and ask for that time too. I wouldn't want a weekend away. How come dads can do that and moms can't? Must be hormonal LOL.
Oh well, that's all that's interesting around here. Oh Allison is pregnant. Don't know if I wrote that before. Pregnancy is going well. Just a few more weeks until I feel better and have energy again. Maybe the house will finally get cleaned then. LOL