Doing something about it. I called the Y to see if I can re-enroll without the fee since I left just a few months ago after being a member for several years. I also called Hallie to see if she and Keira would like to meet tomorrow to play.

I should add that Spencer has been doing good things today as well. Handing cars back and forth, imitating sounds, playing outside with the hose and in the pool, etc. It's not like it's all bad, I'm just scared and lonely and no matter how hard I try to block it out, my mind just keeps focusing on bad. I have to work harder to see good. I'm trying though...