Rachel doesn't want to go to sleep. Go figure ;o).

Another good day for Spencer. He played more with his Lightening car all afternoon. After a good nap I might add. He was drooling a little and chewing on his thumb so I gave him some ibuprofen before bed. I had given him Tylenol upon waking this morning because he woke up crying, and ibuprofen also this morning because he was rubbing his cheeks on the rug in his room and getting really fussy.

He shared his car with Lucy and played with Tom too. They seemed happy. Lucy laughed the entire time she was here. That has to be good for her. She gave me some money to buy him a kitchen play set. Mike isn't in love with the idea, he thinks it will be an eyesore. He's probably right, but I'd like to continue to encourage his pretend play. I also saw Spencer giving hugs to Louie when he was playing in his room. I don't know if I wrote this earlier, but he tried to say "lightening" and came damn close!!! He also said "done" at dinner. I think once we start responding to what he's saying as if he is actually saying words, he will say words. The pictures thing didn't go so well. He smacked the goldfish crackers, but wasn't too enthused with them when I gave them to him. However, he's been having the regular ones in the car lately, and the one's I gave him were pizza, so that may have had something to do with it. I might just pitch the pizza one's. He didn't eat much, but drank a ton of milk. Again, I think his teeth are bothering him.

Rachel ate a ton today!! She was up a bottle and then still wanted more!! She's getting so big. Lucy spent a lot of time holding her.

Mike slept till noon, which I think was good for him. I went in at noon and went to sleep. I told him that I'd realized he got more sleep than I did. He took it to mean I was upset with him, but what I meant was that I should be taking advantage of the opportunity to sleep when I had it (like then). He seems to be better tonight. His mom was in good spirits, his dad didn't take a nap, I didn't' get annoyed with them at all really, the kids were good, no meltdowns or crying fits for either one. I don't think he could ask for a better day for him. He has to go to work tomorrow and live under the reign of D. That's going to suck!!! Yet again, I know he's miserable, but I don't know how to help him. I don't think I can help him. He's completely stuck. Even if he did admit that what he really wants is to rewind and not have kids (and I think that's a big part of it b/c when I asked what would make things better he said that he doesn't even let himself think like that), we can't do that. He'd be miserable if he left us, because he's not that kind of guy. But he's also miserable being with us. He'll get a break next week when we are in TN, I guess. I hope it helps, I really do. He's doing a lot better than he has in the past when he's been like this though. Seeming to understand that miserable or not, there's children to raise and they come first. There was a lot of time during that first year with Spencer that he just wallowed in self-pity and acted like anything he did was deserving of some kind of medal. I just got so mad at him for it. But, he's not like that now. Which is probably why I feel so bad for him, and am not resentful when he needs a night "off" or whatever.