Well our new EI person just came to visit. She was very nice. I like her more than the previous person. She's much more personable. Of course, just one more person saying that we're not all clear. I knew that, I just didn't want to hear it again. Apparently she's the person in the group that works with possible autism cases and that's why she got Spencer's case. She had a lot of good things to say. He does a lot of things that would characterize him as not autistic, but also a lot of things that are worriesome. I'm crying again. It's so scary, and I'm so scared for my little boy. Why is this happening to us? She did tell me again that if he is, he's probably a mild case and that we are catching it early, so wiht therapy he can lead a somewhat normal life. I don't want somewhat normal, I want completely normal. I want him to play soccer and be in the band and go to college, etc. I want him to be self-sufficient. I want him to grow up. I don't want him to stop progressing and stay at this age forever. I love him now, I do, I do, I do, but I don't want him to still be like this when he's 10 or 20 or 30. I can't handle this. I don't know what to do. She's going to send me some more information to help set my mind at ease. I hope it works. I never thought this would be my life. This constant worry is awful.