Finally learning to use PhotoShop. I paid enough for it. I might as well figure a few things out right. Ironically, there's no photo in my new header image, but I'll add some next time. Today was a good day. Spencer is saying some more things. Barely recognizable, but I think he said 'lightening' (as in McQueen), he answered a question yes, he followed directions. He whined all morning, but I didn't give in, I made him tell me what he wanted. Even when I already knew exactly what it was. It's working. All is well with him. No more hand flapping, and he actually said 'yes' or something remotely like it.

Rachel was great today too. She absolutely refused to take a morning nap, but then conked out for three hours midday. Then only had a 15 minute nap in the car while Spencer, Mike and I played at the park. The jungle gym is about 15 feet in front of the car and we were literally the only people there. I left the car on and checked on her every few minutes. She's so cute when she looks up at me from between the bumper and the top of the crib. Those big eyes as wide as she can get them pleading with me to pick her up and play with her. I've got to get a picture of that.

Spencer had a blast going down the slide and over the bridge thing. He doesn't like to go to daddy (or anyone else for that matter). Always wants me. Once he's with them he's fine, but for that first few seconds he's so apprehensive. Mike is trying hard to build a better relationship. He and Spencer went out this evening to run some errands. And Spencer gave him a hug before bed. Moving forward each and everyday.

Mike was in a good mood all day. Actually he was in a bit of a fit when he first got up, but I was determined to not get upset or annoyed or anything like that with him. I'm trying really hard to stick to that. He's a good guy, trying really hard to be all things to all people. He genuinely loves me and I him, so I need to treat him with respect and care that he deserves. We had fun at the park today, and he is taking both kids to his parents tomorrow. That won't be fun for him. I, however, get to go shopping for Christmas outfits for the kids. We are having pictures taken on Saturday.

I'm feeling better today. I've still been up and down, but I think today is the first time in weeks that I haven't shed any tears. They're not far off, but they've not broken through either. Progress on my front too. I really do want everything to be better.