Feeling better, I think. I went to an MNO and surprise of all surprises the subject of autism came up. Everyone knows someone who knows someone whose child is autistic. I just clammed up. I do not want to deal with it in this new mom's group. Spencer is fine. Jen is as close to an expert as I'm gonna get right now. She sees Spencer twice a week for therapy. She said she doesn't see anything to worry about. Heather, though she ahsn't actually met Spencer, also said from what I describe, we've got no worries. There's no point in telling a new group of women that I went a little crazy with ppd over the summer.

In good news, Spencer was ridiculously cute today, even when he was being obnoxious. I had to tell him everything at least twice and push the issue to spanking twice. I might have to switch to time outs. I don't have the heart to spank hard enough it actually hurts. He looked at me twice liked I'd just taken his candy away. He made this cute little hurt (emotionally) whine, too. He was pushing boundaries. When I said come here right now, he imitated me, then again when I got frustrated and said now. Of course at the time it was annoying, but looking back it was so cute. He looks at me while he's ignoring me and smiles. He's 2 all right.

Rachel had a major meltdown when we went for a walk, but was okay most of the day otherwise. She started to go nuts again in the evening. The stoller thing was about 4 hours after I'd given her Tylenol and so was the evening thing about 4 hours after that. Maybe she's just hurting. And it's been about 4 hours again now. Guess who I hear stirring.