I bought a PostSecret book today. I just read it and I'm a whirlwind of emotions. haha. I may have to send a few in. This used to be my place to share secrets, but then I got stupid and told people about it. So, no more secrets here. And yes, I've gone back and changed old posts... Maybe I'll move this blog someplace obscure. Hmmm... I really shouldn't read books like that, it just makes everything seem so surreal and scary. But I'll probably buy another one lol.
So here's my dilemma. I've been laptop-less for less than 24 hours and I'm already going nuts. I know that I can get used to this. Furthermore, I don't want a new computer. I really don't. I mean, of course I want a new computer. It's new, it's pretty, it's new, it's expensive, it's new, it's something fucking interesting in my dull ass world. But that's the exact problem. It would be interesting. It would distract me from the mundane shit, like cleaning house. And it would distract me from important stuff like playing with my children. I liked my old laptop because it was practically useless for anything other than email and internet. And while those are time consuming things, they are nothing compared to Photoshop and scrapbooking. Ps ran like crap on my laptop. It would run really well on a new laptop. Too well. You see the dilemma? I've been salivating over a new one for awhile now, but haven't for that simple reason. It's limitations kept me in check. And well, do I really need to spend (at least) $1300 to surf the internet??? Really??? But it's new and shiny and I have an excuse... And if you are wondering why I don't just find a used version of my current laptop on ebay or something, then you don't know me at all. I'm much too much of a computer snob for that. Hell, I'm fighting with myself about just getting the low end model IF I do get a new laptop. Uggh!
At least a week. I want to go at least a week without it. Mike and I are going out alone tonight. If we end up at the Apple Store, I don't know if I can hold out. My credit card balance is zero right now...
One of the secrets in the book was someone saying that they envy the will power of anorexics. As wrong as it is, I actually agree with them.