Wednesday, May 3
Poor thing had a bad day!! Had a third 8 oz bottle at 330 instead of 6oz at 430. He was crying so hard and he wouldnt' take the bottle even though he was doing the hungry cry. I gave him some Tylenol and he calmed down. The whole time Lucy was here going "maybe mommy needs to give you to grandma" and "grandma can help if mommy needs her to" etc. I just focused on Spencer and trying to make him feel better. She was back in full form today. She didn't spend even a moment not talking about something. When she didn't have something to say, she just went "Ahhh" over and over. GGGGRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! And she brought these outfits "so he'll have something nice to wear in Memphis" that are so feminine I can't stand it. He's not going to wear them and even Mike agrees with me. He's three months old, and I don't feel it is necessary for him to "look nice"! Jesus, how vain can a person be??? He's 13 weeks old!!!!!!!!!!!! He needs to be comfortable, cozy and warm. His rompers are new, attractive and clean, and he has a new sleepnplay that is very cute and 100% cotton. And she dowsed herself in that GODDAMN PERFUME!!!! I can smell it now on everything. I'm so sick of her and her issues. She almost dropped Spencer today and still expects me to leave. And if she's back to telling me that she's available every five minutes. She told me again that she's available in case Spencer gets sick at daycare. I KNOW!!! She's said it a thousand times. I won't have to see her again until Mother's Day. If she tries to take him away from me so that I can "get away" I'll state now that I won't be held responsible for my actions. I don't want to be away from him, and I don't want to leave him in her weak, incapable hands. I'm so glad I won't have to see her for a week, and I refuse to dread seeing her on my first Mother's Day! Spencer and I are going to enjoy it! I love him so much. I didn't even give him a bath tonight, he was so tired. Lucy keeps on talking the whole time she's here and he can't get to sleep. Anyway!!