Yesterday was perfect!!!
I don't remember the exact timing of events, but I know he took a nap
in the morning, later in the morning, a long nap in the afternoon,
and then went to sleep right on time - with no fussiness!! I went to
an MNO game night, so Dianne babysat and put him to bed, but she said
he didn't fuss at all after I left. Is he too young to not want me
to leave, or should I be insulted because he's okay with me leaving?
I vote for the former, he's only three months old. He held down the
cereal better than the day before.

Had a good time at MNO, but there was one girl (newer than I) who I
really didn't care for. It was the first time I'd met her, but I
could tell that no one else really liked her either. She was a know-
it-all, and quite frankly, just a bitch. She made several rude
comments about the home we were in, though I can only imagine that
hers is dirty and disgusting. She was bragging that her kids eat so
much McDonald's you could "live for a week off the petrified fries on
the floor of my car" GROSS!!!! She was speechless when we all said
that our kids don't really eat fast food (granted Spencer is only 3
months, but I don't plan on letting him eat it). She also made a
comment about how close the houses were together in the subdivision -
how RUDE! I interjected with the closeness of the houses in
Settler's Walk and tried to smooth it over. There were these strange
little bugs around the table in the evening - which is normal when
the windows are open, it gets dark outside and there are lights on
inside - but she made it a point to point them out to our hostess. I
mean come on, she knew, she didn't need her guests telling her. And
there were 3 or 4 of them, not a big deal at all. One of the other
girls was sharing an anecdote about a friend (sister, maybe?) who is
not yet 25 and has three kids under three and talking of a fourth and
new girl said "and what trailer park does she live in?" It was a
joke to be sure, but not one you make in front of strangers IMO.
Anyway, I really didn't like her, but I think everyone was annoyed
with her and hopefully she felt the vibes and won't come back.
Granted, i felt the vibes and came back, so...

Went to school today to have lunch today. Mixed feelings there. I
really miss it, truly I do, but I'm pretty sure I'd miss Spencer at
daycare more. I'm really torn about this dc#2/daycare thing. It's
just not fair to Spencer to have him raised by other people only
because he's our only child. I feel like I'm saying to him that he's
not important enough for us to make sacrifices for. And there would
be sacrifices!!! But, when we have another baby, then it's important
enough. I know that daycare cost doubles, etc., but it just seems
unfair. And I'm not completely sure I don't want to go back to
work. My job was frustrating and exhausting to be sure, but I still
loved it. I know that I'll go back eventually, but that may be even
harder. Oh well, I'm off the pill, so we'll just let nature take its
course. Maybe I'll be so afraid of getting preggo that I'll just
give Mikey lots of BJs. Or more likely, I'll offer and he'll refuse
and we'll just go to sleep LOL.

Mike's on his way home!!! He'll be here soon!!! Yeah!!! He didn't
call me this morning, which is odd, because he said he would. And
when I asked him how his night was (after I called him) he said weird
and sad, but wouldn't tell me anything else b/c he didn't want to
talk about it with so many people around. I asked him if there was
somebody with him and he said no. I asked him if someone or
something died and he said no. I asked him if we were okay and he
said we are fine. I said that he was not fine and he said it was
because of the weird night and he'd tell me later. I was getting
really pissed by that point so I just said I was getting annoyed and
we should hang up. I'm getting pissed just thinking about it.
Something is weird. I felt that since I got home and realized he
hadn't called. I wonder if he would have called if I hadn't called
him. If he got drunk and did something stupid, I'll kill him!!!
What if he was in jail??? He better tell me soon. I thought he
would have emailed me or something, but no. I'm getting really mad.
He said it wasn't that big of a deal, but then why wouldn't he tell me?