Well, I think I'm pregnant again. I had cramping last night similar to what I had when I conceived Spencer. It felt a little like gas, but I never farted. I burped a couple of times, but they were attached to heartburn and didn't alleviate any of the pain. The good news is that though I did have a cigarette last night, it was before the cramping. I wanted one later in the evening, but Mike wouldn't join me and thinking that I'm really pregnant stopped me.

I've worked out everyday since Sat. Either cardio (just Mon) or toning. I did abs and hips/butt on Sat night and arms on Sun. Then cardio yesterday and so far I've done legs today, but I plan on doing arms, abs and hips/butt before the day ends. Eating better. I made brownies last night and ate some, but i've not touched them this morning even though they are on the stove calling to me. I'm trying to be strong and succeeding!! Go me!!!

Mike thinks that the promotion he has been hoping for is looming on the horizon. There is a new organizational chart that will be published sometime soon and he's been told that he will be "happy". I hope he is. He feels so much pressure to make more money and be a "good provider" for the family. I think he does a great job, but he has a self-impossed sense of duty. That's a good thing though. I'd rather that then the alternative. I hope he doesn't go overboard. I don't think he will. If this newest development isn't the promotion he is looking for, then I'll just have to accept that he's not moving any higher at his job then where he is. I hope he can accept that too.

Spencer rolled over yesterday!! Totally on his own!!! I got video of him doing it, so that's good. He's enjoying carrots a little more and is eagerly opening his mouth for the spoon - even if he spits the food right back out LOL. He is learning so much everyday. It's amazing to watch him figure things out. He's such a great baby! It hit me this morning that if I was teaching summer school, someone else would have been there for his first roll over. A virtual stranger in a daycare center. I'm even more sure now of my decision. Just in time, too, because I've been getting a little lonely and bored lately. Cleaning house can only be so satisfying.

On that note, the house looks great. I keep seeing more and more to do, though. I don't know how I ever considered the house "clean" before. I guess it was always "clean enough". I scrubbed the washer and dryer the other day. That's the kind of thing a working girl never had time or inclination to do, but it looks so much nicer. Mike put the self up in there and now we can actually use the top of the dryer for folding clothes. It's revolutionary!! I'm doing little things that won't be noticed, but after 30 or 40 little things, all of a sudden then house will look cleaner and brighter than ever before and no one will be able to pinpoint why. Like wiping the tops of the light switches - little things. I also FINALLY painted the gold on the fireplace. I should've done that the day after we moved in. Why did it take me over 5 years???????? It was so easy and it looks 6,000,000% better. I'm supposed to dust today, but it doesn't really need it. I keep telling myself, that that's the exact reason I should do it anyway. Never let something get to the point of "needing" to be done.

I'm craving some personal space on the main level. My computer got moved upstairs as a family photo drop, so now I have all this stuff downstairs to deal with. Without the computer it's kind of silly to still consider it a useful space. Maybe in a few years the desk can be useful for the family again. We'll see.