He's gonna quit drinking. For real, no strings, no resentment, his choice!!! YAY!!!!

When he came home yesterday he just kinda acted that things were relatively normal and I spoke to him, but kinda gave him the cold shoulder. After a bit, he put his hand on my shoulder (even though it was cold) and told me he wasn't going to drink anymore. He furthermore promised that what happened on Sunday would NEVER happen again. Hallelujah!! It was my best possible scenario and I really didn't know if he would understand that Sunday was a big deal or he'd write it off. I had braced myself for the latter and told myself that it wasn't Mike it was the alcoholism fogging his mind. I'm so glad it turned out like it did.

He's having a rough time right now, having quit smoking and drinking in the last four days. I'm giving him space and support and most of all, lots of slack. That's all I can do. I keep reminding myself that he doesn't need to talk or a hug, he just needs time to mentally and physically adjust. He's in the bedroom watching Battlestar right now.

In other news, I'm going to Alabama on Sunday. I'm not sure how the drive is going to go, but overall I'm looking forward to the trip. Between the mom's groups and Margot's friendship, I'm finally looking forward to outing with friends. I've been seeing them as necessary obligations for so long. I really feel like I cheated Nadya, because I never really wanted to be friends with her. I was very selfish and not very nice to maintain a "friendship" that I didn't want. She is how she is and she never made any excuses about that. Though I tell myself I accepted it, I really didn't because I expecting every meeting to end up differently. And if I really wanted to be friends with Melanie so badly, I would have called or put myself out there in some way. Oh well...

I don't know if I blogged about when Margot came to Cincinnati or not, but I hope I did. I was a really good time. I'm really looking forward to going down there next week.

T/L will resume their Wed nights tomorrow.

Mike will be gone for 10 days!!! That's gonna suck. Luckily I'll have the dogs and the guns to keep us safe! We'll miss him, though. That's a long trip and over the weekend too! He's gonna have a hard time not drinking and smoking. I'm going to have to brace myself for the possibility of him falling off the wagon and be ready. Hopefully it won't happen, but if it does I don't want to overreact and jump all over him. I just hope he doesn't feel like he can't tell me. But I can't tell him it's okay and I'll be okay if it happens b/c then I'm feel like I'm giving him permission. Tricky situation. I'll just roll with the punches and remember to be supportive, not judgemental! That needs to be my new modo (sp?)...

Enough for now...