I'm such a horrible person. I really am. I can't get past the idea that going to the therapy place means there's something "wrong" with my son. There's not. He was a little off today, kept tugging on his ears, pointing to his mouth (only the right side), etc. His other two molars must be working their way in. Poor kid! I gave him some ibuprofen when I was positive that's what the problem was. He took a good long nap afterwards. Come to think of it, he woke up crying this morning, but seemed to go right back to sleep after literally a minute. Man he's a great kid. I had another mild panic attack tonight. He's fine. He's totally fine. Is he like every other kid in the world? No. He was excited to see his daddy tonight when Mike got home. Spencer didn't eat much dinner but what he did eat he ate with his fork. He was interested in spinning the wheels on his toys today, but he was playing with them appropriately too. I'm not going to worry about it. Kids like to spin things, he's certainly not obsessed with spinning things. He has been biting everything, but I think that's teething. He's not chewing on things, he's actually biting for relief it seems like.

Okay I'm watching Drew Carey's debut on the Price is Right and I have to say it's not so good. He seems really nervous. Give him a week or two and it will be great. So far 3 people have won full prizes and the first person to spin the wheel got the coveted dollar.

Rachel had two 2-hour naps today. She was pretty happy in between too. We may finally get getting there. Unfortunately "there" is the opposite of Spencer's nap, so we're housebound, but we'll figure it out. Actually, I got Spencer up at 1 and she was already up and she wasn't ready to go down until about 3 or 330, so that gives me a two hour window. I just have to fit in lunch and a bottle, but I'll figure it out eventually.

I'm tired of worrying. I don't know if he'll ever start talking. I'm not sure he wants to or really sees the need to. He will eventually. I hope. Overall, I'm feeling much better, though.

Mike is good again today. It's been almost a week now. Wow! I don't think he's ever been this relaxed for this long before. He's really working hard to let things go and not let them get to him. He's having trouble finding a new job, but he's expanding his search parameters instead of getting discouraged. Huge progress on his part. I'm so proud of him.

I guess I'm the next one who needs to show progress. Spencer has made huge strides since his 18 month eval. Mike has practically become a different person in the last week. Rachel is rolling across the room (literally). I guess I'm next. I need to relax. Just relax. Just relax.

Oh, I fixed my hair and *gasp* put on some make-up today. Trying to start taking care of me too.

We have a playdate tomorrow morning. Hallie and Keira are coming over. That should be fun.