Not a good day. Spencer didn't take a nap until 230. That's the second time this week he's done that. I guess he's finally ready for an afternoon nap. Maybe. He was pretty good. Rachel was fussy again. It's really surprising if she is awake and happy for more than 10 minutes when she's not being held. And she squirms like crazy when she's being held, like she wants to be put down. I didn't sleep well last night (couldn't get to sleep, then storms, then Rachel's monitor, then Rachel, then Rachel again) and I was kinda cranky. Well this evening I lost it. The dogs chewed up a bottle while we were at the store, then Monkey was trying to get up on the counter to get the meatloaf. Mike went to give Spencer a bath adn I put Rachel in her bouncy so I could get her bath ready. Well after about 1 minute she started fussing, and within 4 minutes she was in full blown hysterics. I couldn't go near her. I was so pissed off that I thought I might shake her or scream in her face or somehitng. so I went to put her laundry away. She cried harder. Finally I walked into the room and screamed 'Rachel shut up' from about 15 feet away. Mike came out and told me to finish Spencer's bath, he'd get Rachel. Okay. Then spencer starts being crazy on the changing table. I told him it wasn't a good night to pull this. Mike put Rachel in her crib, took over dressing Spence, and told me to go to bed. Oh, in the mean time the dogs had gotten up again without being released.

Later, Mike had the nerve to tell me he was annoyed at me! OMG!! He's been like that but worse for months straight. I get fed up one night and he's annoyed at me!!! Fuck him! He whines at Spencer EVERY NIGHT when he's putting his pj's on after bathtime. EVERY NIGHT! Fuck him! Fuck him! Fuck him! And it's the fucking weekend, so we get to go into the weekend on a bad note. I'm allowed to get frustrated once-in-a-while. He doesnt hold the monopoly on getting fed up. GGGRRR!!!