Another long ass day. I'm going to call it a wash with Spencer. Bad balanced good. He was pointing like a mofo. He didn't talk much though. He did point to his mouth several times and I gave him Tylenol again in the afternoon because I kept saying what's wrong and he pointed to his mouth. Poor kid. That lip has got to hurt. Mike also thinks the two year molars may be coming. Grrreeeaaattt. He was just fussy all day. Threw a few honest to goodness tantrums, but the rest was just flat out whiney. He wanted to watch TV all day and I had to say no a couple of times. He was slamming his cars together and putting them down the stupid garage ramp over and over. Not the same car and not the same way, but just playing with the spiral ramp and the slide ramp a lot. He wouldn't tell me he was hungry. He had a snack at 10 or so, nap at 11, up at 1 and at 230 I finally just gave him a sandwich because I knew that hunger was a good part of why he was being so whiney. And then at 345, when I was making dinner I gave him some juice becuase I knew he had to be thristy even if he wasn't asking for anything. Ugghh!!!! I asked him many times if he was hungry or thirsty and each time I got no response, which I took to mean no. He was significantly better after I gave him the Ty, so maybe his lip was just bothering him and he didn't want to eat. Who knows. I just keep telling myself it's normal. I don't know if it is, but I can't do anything more than I already am if it's not, so I for now I'm sticking with the assumption that it is. He was also giving me the sign for sleepy midday, after his nap, so I tried to put him down, but he didn't want that. On a good note, I went into his room after his nap and told him that when he wanted me to get him up he should shout mama and I demonstrated. Immediately he yelled 'mama'. We'll see if he does it again lol.

Rachel was good too. She getting cuter by the second. She's sitting completely on her own now. For about 10 minutes today before she fell over. I put her next to a basket of soft toys and she's in heaven. Trying to grab and hold everything. It's so cute. Spencer used to do the exact same thing. And today she started really exchanging 'words'. She must be hitting the 6 month growth spurt because she's eating like crazy. Had an extra bottle today and a third container of food (cereal, applesauce, and carrots). She's asleep now. Took a good nap this morning, okay nap midday and a downright useless one this evening.

Mike and I are good. Nothing like some nighttime relations to give the marriage a boost. I'm so confused about how much of what I perceive as problems are real and how much is in my head. I'm going to the psychologist tomorrow for the first time, so hopefully that will be beneficial. I'm feeling better now, though. Not sure if that's the meds kicking in or maybe just getting some whoopy, but either way, I'm feeling better. Also I think cancelling EI for now was a very good decision.