Rachel is still super whiney. I think she needs a routine. I keep tryign to institute the 9/2 sleep times, but with speech therapy on Mon and Thurs, as soon as she get's used to it, I have to alter it. Grrr!

I've committed myself to one year of dieting and exercise. I'm 30 and still fat. The highlight of my 20s (physically) was the time I spent dieting and exercising. I remember feeling so good about myself all the time, literally. I never feel that way anymore. In fact the other night I had to put Mike off because I felt so bad about my body that I couldn't even get a little bit turned on. How sad is that? So the next morning I exercised and I will continue to exercise every morning for a year. I will also eat better. I will still have the 'bad' food that I enjoy, but I will have Spencer sized portions of it. That will also save money. We went to Skyline the other night and I got a child's sized 3-way and two coneys instead of a regular size and two coneys. We really only went becaue we wanted to try having dinner wiht all 4 of us. We thought that he speed factor would be good. For non-Cincinnatians - Skyline is somewhere between fast food and an regular restaurant, you sit and eat at a table and have a server, but the food comes about 2 minutes after you order, literally. It went EXTREMELY well. Rachel was happy with a bun. Spencer sat in a booster seat for the first time. He had hot dogs, cheese, a bun, and a little of my 3-way (spaghetti, chili, and cheese). He loved it. I got some really cute pictures. Both kids were just beginning to get a little antsy when it was time to go, perfect. My point is though, that we didn't want to be "bad" food wise, but the bad food came along with our goal. So I got a smaller portion then usual. I've worked out two days now and there are no negative effects other than a little soreness.

So I've made a commitment to myself. What makes this time different from the last 100 times I've said that. Not a damn thing. Hopefully it just will be.

I'm going to make a list of the reasons I want to get healthy and in shape. I know that many/most of them are not about me. I'll post it here for the world (or no one but me) to see when I do.