Ah, Monday again. Mike was sick on Sat and upset all day yesterday. The usual, money. I don't know how to convince him to stop stressing about it. I've offered (for the dozenth time) to be the payer of the bills so that he doesn't get so stressed, but I'm sure he will refuse. He is who he is and I love him. Even when we are driving each other crazy.

Rachel's crawling. Right now she's after the tiney freeze dried apple snacks that she scattered everywhere. She just said the m sound for the first time.

Spencer's doing great. Repeating everything I say. I tried to get him to repeat 'shit' yesterday, but he wouldn't. Goody goody just like his daddy :oP. He's ignoring me in the ways that a 2 year old does. Actually he's been a little off today, come to think of it. And he's been sleeping for about 2 hours now. He was up early this morning, though.

I've been working out faithfully. Rewarded myself yesterday with 2 new songs. It's hard to reward myself when we are broke and I'm dieting, but that's the price I pay. I keep stopping myself from eating the kids snacks. This morning I had a spoon full of cheerios almost to my mouth when I realized what I was doing and stopped. Spencer had just finished them, but I wasn't even hungry. Just going to finish them out of habit??? It's amazing how many times I stop myself all day long. Mike and I were arguing a little last night and without thinking I walked right over an opened the fridge. I wasn't hungry, but my instinct was to go to the fridge when I was upset. I closed it and walked away. Good for me. My jeans are already fitting looser. When I put them on this morning, fresh out of the wash, they were not skin tight. Didn't need to walk around the house for a half hour to stretch them out before I left the house. Super!!