I hope today is a better day than yesterday. I did seem to get it together later in the day which makes me think that it was mostly missing my meds on Monday that was the culprit. I had forgotten, but it's usually 3-4 days later for a few hours midday that is when it affects me.

Still more info is coming out about our friends and the horrific night that the wife and children died. From what I'm reading, maybe the police 'leaked' false info about what the husband said and he really wasn't to blame. The outcome is still the same though. But now I have to face the fact that my friend, a fellow mom, may have been the one to start the fire with no thought as to getting her children to safety. Chilling, to put it mildly.

I missed a couple of anti-depressants over the last couple weeks and didn't have the periods of anger/anxiety that I usually do when I miss one. So I was thinking that maybe I should talk to my doctor about stopping them. Well, I'm definitely starting to feel the effects now. Just talking about autism yesterday with a mother of an autistic boy threw me into a panic attack for the rest of the day. Guess I'm not ready yet. I'm starting to wonder if I will ever be capable of controlling my own emotions.

Rachel is 'walking' by pushing a chair right now. She's so ready!!! She's bouncing and everything. Spencer was still awake at 9:30 last night. Oh no!! Hopefully he won't be too much of a grumpy butt today. We have a playdate this morning.