I have so much to say and so little time.  So I'll keep it succinct.  Definitely a SAHM now.  Told Dennis Wed. and sent letter to HR Thurs.  Tom made an offer and a good one.  Might be preggers again, but i've been drinking (not much b/c I'm me) and smoking.  No more.  Cleaning like crazy for visit from Nancy (and Ted).  Lucy called FRIDAY morning and said they'd be here a few hours later.  Three days earlier than planned.  But, I pulled it off.  Sure the baseboards weren't cleaned, but there were fresh cut flowers from bushes on the table - as requested.  Cookout is tomorrow.  Hopefully eveyrthing will go well.  Went to a Reds game today.  It was a lot of fun.  After the 9th inning, they allowed people to run the bases, so we ALL did that and got a certificate to prove it LOL.  I'm joinind another mom's group on meetup.com.  Sounds like it just got started also.  Made calling cards for the for cinmoms and everyone like them.  What else?

Spencer is REALLY close to rolling.  He's lauging a lot now.  He is soooo wonderful.  I really never understood how cool having a baby would be.  I always had that "they are great as long as I can give them back and go home alone" mentality, but I was so wrong.  Being with him is being home.  

Scott came over yesterday to visit.  Yet again did not offer to chip in for dinner.  He invites himself up, not that I mind, but we are not going to be "free food" anymore.  Next time, I'll just ask him to poney up some cash.  We played pool, which I haven't done in such a long time.  It was nice and fun.  Again, though, we had to say "okay time for us to go to bed, see ya".  It makes me feel so old, but I guess I am.  He's still in college and living on the college schedule.  He said that if he goes full time he can get his BA in two years!  I didn't want to tell him that I finished my master's 4 years ago.  Everyone has different goals though.  I killed myself getting that stupid degree and for what?  Now I've quit teaching so it's completely useless.  Oh well...  No sense in dwelling on that. 

Had lots of fun with Mike at the game today.

Things to come back to with more time:

I've spent the last 10 years working towards a career goal and I've spent the last 4 months trying (successfully) to find a way to throw it all out the window.  To busy to analyze that right now, but eventually I'll need to make peace with it and forgive myself for losing "me" in the quest to be the best "mom" I can be.