Things are going a lot better. I seem to have snapped out of my funk and so has M. Which triggered which? Or was it all in my head to begin with? Who knows... And it's in the past so it doesn't really matter, no point in dwelling on what you can't change.

Had to get S's blood drawn today for a lead screening, and just basic check up. It was horrible!!!!!!!! The woman couldn't find his vein in his right arm, though she poked around for about 45 seconds after he was already screaming. He didn't like being held down! Then it took her about the same amount of time to find it in his left arm, but finally she did. He was screaming, I was crying, R was kicking LOL. What a mess. Then he opened his arms to one of the women in between arms and he kept looking at me while she was holding him. I had to push my way between the three women and say "Uh, can I have my son please?" I felt a little crushed when he opened his arms to this other woman, but he didn't calm down until he was in my arms. Maybe through his tears, she looked like me LOL.

AND, this guy in the parking lot almost stole my wallet and diaper bag!! I left the stroller around the back of the van while I got S out of his car seat. It took me a moment because I had to put his jacket on (don't like to have it on in the carseat b/c it makes it less effective). When I turned around this guy was walking past and just a little bent over. When he saw me, he straightened and kept on walking. We made eye contact and there is ZERO doubt in my mind what would have happened if I'd been 2 seconds later in turning around. You read in romance novels about the amount of information that can be transmitted in a split second eye contact. That doesn't happen very often in real life, but in this case it did. I'm just glad it was broad daylight and there were other people around. That guy gave me the creeps! This all occured in less than a couple of seconds.

M and I are doing better. I've resolved to just ignore his complaints and ailments. I don't ignore them to him, but inside I'm saying "whatever". Last night he complained he was hurting all over. I'm 7 months pregnant and in better shape than him. It's not normal for a healthy 34 year old man to be in some sort of discomfort all the time. I used to worry that there was really something wrong, but even if there is, he is not going to do anything about it - like see a doc or keep track of daily symptoms, so my worrying just causes me unnecessary stress. If he's not concerned, I'm not concerned. He never does anything about it (I was actually surprised last night when he took Pepcid after complaining of heartburn), so I don't think the problems are as bad as he says. He just likes to play the drama card. I knew that when I married him LOL. Anyway, just blowing it off on the inside has been working so far, so I'm going to keep at it. I wish for his sake that he didn't feel bad all the time, but it's his life...

Had a good weekend. Lunch with Alli, avoided the ILs, "bad" dinners both nights. Doodle's up, gotta go...