So here's the thing. I think I'm going to start blowing of the Early Intervention folks. Why? Well, what have they done for us really? Initial eval: horrible. Through dh and I into a state of panic the likes of which I hope to never ever experience again. Since then: different people constantly, constantly evaluating, not really offering suggestions on what to do to help Spence. In fact the only two times we've gotten anything constructive was from the Service coordinator (who has since quit and telling us these things wasn't even part of her job) and the SLP. The SC told us to start giving him choices. And the SLP gave me a list of songs to sing, one of which was the animals version of wheels on the bus, which has been a huge success. The EI specialist we had, who has since quit, just came and played with him, doing her internal eval and left. Didn't give us any kind of 'assignment' or anything like that AT ALL. And our new EI specialist (whom granted I've only met once) is an autism specialist and seemed excited that Spencer might be autistic. Both women have done nothing more than throw me back into panic mode each time they visit. I keep telling myself that we are working with them becuase it's in Spencer's best interest and my overwhelming desire to cancel their appts is selfish. But now that I think about it, they're not really benefitting Spencer. In fact, they are coming again today (more paperwork and meet yet another new girl) and I timed it for when he is napping. And throwing mommy into panic mode for a week actually hurts Spencer. So why do I keep working with them?

Doc Joe agreed last night when I told him that the new EIS seems (from what I said) a little over-zealous. I just can't get over her comment about autistic kids being so fascinating. Like I should be honored that this is an option for us. Number one: don't blow sunshine up my ass, it just pisses me off. Number two: it's not about me (or her) being fascinated, it's about Spencer having every possible option for his life and not being limited by anything. I don't want my kid to serve as a fascination for other people. WTF kind of comment is that???? Obviously one made by someone who's not ever been in my situation. Anyway, I really don't want to ever see her again.

We are doing private speech therapy and have already consulted actual doctors and have a follow up appt with them in March. Why do we need EI? They will be here in an hour. I think I may just make appts and plan on cancelling them from now on. Via email or voicemail, so I don't have to reschedule. Unless today is siginificantly different, which I don't see it being.