This morning I woke to Mike telling me that N, Mar, V, J and Mia had all been murdered and M was in the hospital with charges pending. He has now been charged with 5 counts of murder and arson. My first thought was Mel and how is she. Then whether I should reach out to her or not. Then the children. And so on and so forth.

We ended up going over to Mel and F's with a casserole. We told them we didn't need details and all they said was that the police weren't necessarily releasing correct information to the media. The news is now saying that he killed N and set the home on fire. I can't imagine being in F's place and trying to come to terms with your best friend since childhood being capable of such a thing. And he and Mel having their best friends, a whole family, just gone and out of their lives forever. They can't go to the hospital to see M or anything. All they know is that when he's released from the hospital he'll be going straight to jail.

We knew these people. We were friends with them. Playing with V when he was a baby is what made me realize I wanted a baby. We had dinner together so many times. I helped give the kids baths. I played with Mar in our bean bag cheir and tossed her up and down when she was Spencer's age. We visited N in the hospital when the twins were born. I can't believe this has happened. I can't believe this... It's just unbelievable. What the hell could possibly have happened that would cause this to h